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    Wednesday, May 27th, 2009
    3:45 pm
    3:43 pm
    Friday, May 22nd, 2009
    11:46 pm
    Someone indicated to me tonight that some think I'm going too far with this "you may call me Master" stuff and that if I don't stop I'll be put in my place.

    I don't understand, though. I'm IN my place. My place of Mastery, that is.




    ::::poke poke poke::::
    Monday, May 11th, 2009
    1:22 pm
    It's graduation day! Well, the first of two. That's right, folks--you may all now call me "Master."
    Saturday, March 7th, 2009
    4:16 pm
    Question #2
    You mentioned once that you were falsely arrested. What happened and how did you deal with it at the time?

    *************

    You know, I could have sworn that I'd posted about this at some point. I probably considered it but opted against it because, well, it still bothers me.

    I was walking home from the subway, crossing the street when a car basically blew through a light making a left turn and almost ran me over. I jumped out of the way and spit at the car as it careened past, surprised when it actually stopped. A guy came out wearing a tee-shirt that said something about a "rumble" and packing an alarming number of muscles underneath it and a clearly bad attitude above the neck. This was clearly not someone I wanted to have fuck all to do with. He left his car parked in the middle of the street and started coming towards me asking if I'd spit at his car. I tried to ignore him and walk on my way, but he kept standing in front of me, getting more and more aggressive about it and asking me for my ID.

    At this point I figured that I was actually in some danger, so I turned around and started walking the other way, pulled out my phone and called 911. The guy came up behind me and grabbed me, turning me around and started saying something about my being in trouble, pulling out a radio and asking for some "help" on the corner. I was shitting myself at this point, thinking that he'd just called the rest of the "rumblers." You can't imagine my relief when I saw the police roll up a minute later, lights and sirens and all. You probably CAN imagine my surprise when it was me that they cuffed and took in.

    They brought me into the precinct, searched my bag, had me empty my pockets, took my belt and shoelaces, and put me in a cell. I think that if they hadn't taken my belt and shoelaces, I would have been in much worse shape. As it was, I have to give thanks and praise to Arlo Guthrie for the line in Alice's Restaurant where he says, "did you think I was going to hang myself for littering?" I sat there in that cell for who knows how long, singing "You can get anything you want at Alice's restaurant" over and over again...it was my mantra. I would devolve into worry, then remind myself that I didn't do anything wrong, this guy handled me physically, and, most importantly, didn't identify himself as a police officer. "You can get anything you want...ommmmm...."

    Eventually he came in to see me, standing outside of my cell and giving me whatnot for what I did. I spoke as little as possible, respectfully, calmly. It drove him nuts. He pulled out my wallet and explained how he now knew where I lived and how he could make trouble for me. He made it very clear who was boss. Given my position, I took it. "You can get anything you want...ommm." Eventually I was let out and given my court date, at which he didn't bother showing up but in his report said that I had spit ON HIM, which I did not, and left out all of the things that he had done. I had hired a lawyer who turned out to be mostly ineffectual, except in as much as he made it all go quickly. I got a day of community service and was on probation for 6 months, after which (if there were no further incidents), my record would be clear.

    But, I couldn't go home from work anymore. I just couldn't do it. I eventually got something to take before walking that route, but it took me forever to cross that street again (did I ever actually, or did I just go another way?).

    The day those 6 months were up, I contacted the Citizen's Police Advisory Board and pled my case to them. No way I was going to do it before then--who knows what the guy would have done to trigger that probation. He had my address, after all. He was found to be guilty and his superior disciplined him. I don't know the details of it, but it was something between loss of paid vacation days to time off without leave. Nothing serious enough for what he did. Justice did come, though. A couple of years later, the narcotics unit of this precinct (of which the rumbler was a sgt) was busted for corruption.

    Might have been a bad apple, but it was a bad enough apple that I started saying something that I never had before. "Fucking cops."
    Thursday, March 5th, 2009
    6:26 pm
    Question #1
    How frequently do you think about your choice of dialect when speaking or writing? Do you use a different style of speech when you're around queer people? Your family? Academians?


    This is a really interesting question, and because of the literature I'm reading for my thesis, I can even answer as an academician! People are dramaturgical communicators, adjusting our styles as is situationally appropriate. We play children, employees, supervisors, lovers, etc. as suits the moment. Of course, that doesn't mean that we think about it, just that we do it.

    One funny story I have about using a different style of speech around queer folk is one day I was out with E and a couple of her friends who I was trying to make a good impression on. I was driving the car and someone cut me off or something and my natural inclination was to call the driver a fucker but, trying to be polite, I went "Christmas Story" and went with "fudge" instead of fuck and the first descriptive exclamation I came to was "fudge-packer." Good job, brain, why don't you take the REST of the day off, too!

    As for conscious choices of dialect in other situations, I tend to try to keep to standard English grammar in most cases when writing, the biggest exception being text messaging and the second being IM. Of course, in some situations I will use more adjectives and coloquialisms than in others. I generally only turn on the smart talk (meaning academic) for show or when in an appropriate situation (in class), but it is actually a great academic exercise to explain things in plain English. On the other hand, I make sure to only turn on the smart talk (meaning wise-ass) when I'm around people who will understand it and understand that I mean it with good intention.

    Thanks for the question!
    4:15 pm
    Question month!
    March is question month! (Not to mention my birthday month!) So - ask me anything here, and I'll answer it in a post.

    Who knows, maybe it will inspire me to actually WRITE! ;)

    So, ask away. Personal things, things you've been curious about, random questions you're asking anyone else. Questions you're asking as a beard for someone else. Whatever.
    12:15 pm
    I'm not a rabbi, but i play one in real life
    I Am A: Neutral Good Human Cleric (4th Level)


    Ability Scores:

    Strength-12

    Dexterity-12

    Constitution-14

    Intelligence-14

    Wisdom-13

    Charisma-13


    Alignment:
    Neutral Good A neutral good character does the best that a good person can do. He is devoted to helping others. He works with kings and magistrates but does not feel beholden to them. Neutral good is the best alignment you can be because it means doing what is good without bias for or against order. However, neutral good can be a dangerous alignment because it advances mediocrity by limiting the actions of the truly capable.


    Race:
    Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.


    Class:
    Clerics act as intermediaries between the earthly and the divine (or infernal) worlds. A good cleric helps those in need, while an evil cleric seeks to spread his patron's vision of evil across the world. All clerics can heal wounds and bring people back from the brink of death, and powerful clerics can even raise the dead. Likewise, all clerics have authority over undead creatures, and they can turn away or even destroy these creatures. Clerics are trained in the use of simple weapons, and can use all forms of armor and shields without penalty, since armor does not interfere with the casting of divine spells. In addition to his normal complement of spells, every cleric chooses to focus on two of his deity's domains. These domains grants the cleric special powers, and give him access to spells that he might otherwise never learn. A cleric's Wisdom score should be high, since this determines the maximum spell level that he can cast.


    Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

    Monday, February 16th, 2009
    9:30 pm
    A friend of mine, who some of you may actually know, is doing a research study and is looking for volunteers (age 18 or older) to interview.

    The study is about how people come to recognize their interests in SM, and includes discovery, identity construction, and coming out. I'm interested in talking to all sorts of people, from people who have it all worked out to people who are full of questions. Interviews are confidential, are conducted by phone and take about 2 hours. I'm a graduate student at Emerson College and co-authoring the study with Thomas Weinberg, author of S & M: Studies in Dominance and Submission. There is almost no research in this area, so your participation could make a huge contribution to what is known about this process.

    If you're interested, get in touch with Tanya at emersonstudy@yahoo.com
    Saturday, December 13th, 2008
    8:08 pm
    things that make you go hmm...
    With the stock market in crisis and stock traders out of work, do you think coke dealers are doing worse, since those folks aren't making money, or better, since they're depressed?
    Friday, December 12th, 2008
    7:02 pm
    Who woulda thunkit?

    Your Social Dysfunction:
    Normal



    Being average in terms of how social you are, as well as the amount of self-esteem you have, you're pretty much normal. Good on you.





    Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com


    Please note that we aren't, nor do we claim to be, psychologists. This quiz is for fun and entertainment only. Try not to freak out about your results.


    Friday, November 28th, 2008
    12:47 pm
    Trapped!
    So, I had ligament repair surgery on my ankle on Monday and I'm trapped in my apartment for the next few weeks.

    If anyone's interested in hanging out, you know where I'll be!
    Thursday, October 16th, 2008
    10:54 pm
    political survey
    I am Professor Monique Mitchell Turner from the University of Maryland. I, along with my colleague, Charlton McIlwain from New York University are engaging in a NON PARTISAN, informational study on political ads. Neither Dr. McIlwain or I work for any political party—we are researchers. This study is approved by the University of Maryland Institutional Review Board.

    We need a wide variety of research participants, which is why we are asking for your help. We would like you to participate in this study and we would like you to ask others to also be in the study (your friends, your family, other adults over age 18 that you know). As more people engage in this study, the more realistic and representative of the United States our results will be. We are hoping that this e-mail message will continue to spread until we have a large and representative sample.

    We appreciate your time. Please know that there are NO correct or incorrect answers to the survey questions inside. We simply want to know your opinions. All of these data are completely confidential—your name or IP address will NEVER be associated with your answers. If you can help us with this important research, we would be very grateful.

    Please click here to begin:

    http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=1UiFExeNkEl7WMWeLDID_2fQ_3d_3d
    Wednesday, October 15th, 2008
    10:12 pm
    Book Meme
    * Grab the nearest book.
    * Open the book to page 56.
    * Find the fifth sentence.
    * Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
    * Don’t dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.

    Things often cost much, much less than expected.
    Wednesday, September 3rd, 2008
    11:04 pm
    I'm just beside myself watching Palin speak. For most of her speech, I was just annoyed at the fact that she didn't seem to be paying much attention to what had actually been happening over the past few years or even the past few months. She said Washington counted McCain out of the primaries, when "Washington" doesn't have anything to do or say with national poles.

    When she talked about how government should leave the country better than it found it and serve with humility and accountability I almost thought she was being sarcastic, not ironic. The examples go on. I thought it was interesting how often she inspired the crowd to boo--not at all indicative of how government by fear operates, I'm sure. When she brought up how McCain had been fighting since the 2000 campaign, I couldn't understand how she could do so without recognizing how the man recreated himself into a more palatable candidate to the right in order to get the nomination.

    It was when she sneered at Obama being concerned about reading suspected terrorists their rights that I finally broke. How can you defend someone and promote their assumption to enforce the laws of the land when they look so disdainfully upon those laws?

    Current Mood: disgusted
    Thursday, July 31st, 2008
    4:48 pm
    1:38 pm
    it has recently been pointed out to me that I don't post much. Ironically, this was pointed out to me by someone who doesn't post much. I think I need to point out, clearly, that my LJ is NOT porn for you, missy! You go get your kicks elsewhere!

    Or, barring that, come get some kicks in here!

    Okay, enough of that, here's a post.

    So, as some of you know, I've been trying to lose some weight. I was doing pretty darned well, too, especially in terms of exercise. I was walking around 3 miles a day and then--disaster! I sprained my ankle at TES Fest. This was not the crippling pain that would leave me bruised and shaken for weeks that I had been hoping for, I'm afraid and, worse, made my walking 3 meters a day something of a challenge. I'll talk more about that stuff on my O2A list.

    Other than weight loss, it's really put a crimp in my social style. I've missed several events, including one at which I was hoping to meet Jessica G. and Jayme W. I didn't know exactly who they were, but they were on my facebook and seemed interesting. Well, this past weekend I went to see The Wet Spots and guess who was there? Well, a couple of hundred people, a quarter of whom I knew. Included in those multitudes were Jayme, who I apparently had just had dinner at the next table "with," but whom I didn't actually get to meet, and Jessica, who I met when a friend of mine introduced her to me. I didn't know it was her until I got home and saw that she was in a relationship with him! Funny :)

    The night before E and I went to the roller derby where we saw the Manhattan team get spanked so hard my ass hurt (or maybe it was the hard bleacher seating). The Bronx team was fierce. I think I'll enjoy going again and sitting closer, maybe see the Queens of Pain (led by Donna Matrix). The schtick with rollerderby is on par with wrestling, but there's actual competition. It's a stitch.

    The biggest boon in spraining my ankle is that, once I got off of the pain pills and had watched everything on the DVR, I finally started studying for the GMAT. Ugh. I have NOT been happy with this process, but I think I may be getting over a hump with it. I'm hoping to take it in the next couple of weeks so that I can have some time to relax before school starts. If it feels like I won't be ready, I'll probably shelve it for a while. Oh, and school is a pain in the ass. I finally got my program to approve me for some courses outside of the program (since they offer so few after work) and now the approval process at work (yay tuition reimbursement) keeps changing their requirements so I don't know if I'm going to actually be able to take the classes I want. Basically, I hate HR. There, I said it.

    Well, back to work for me!

    Current Music: U2 - Dancing Queen (that's right!)
    Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
    2:50 pm
    Support Governor Patterson's directive on Marriage
    If you support equal marriage rights for same-sex couples in New York,
    please take 15 seconds to help.

    Governor Paterson has directed that NY recognize legal same-sex
    marriages from other states and countries. He is now conducting a poll
    to determine whether New Yorkers will support this initiative. All
    you have to do is call 1-518-474-8390, say "I support the Governor's
    directive on marriage," then give your 5 digit (New York) zip code.

    A LIVE PERSON ANSWERS!!! I was shocked, thought others might be, too.

    Then send this to all your friends and progressive colleagues in New York.
    Friday, June 6th, 2008
    11:53 pm
    You know, all in all, I've goty a pretty sweet life. I've got a girl who I know in my heart would do anything for me, and I she. We have differences, no doubt, but we work it out.

    Tonight we went to see MOMIX at the Joyce. Let me tell you all sommething...

    G O S E E M O M I X ! ! !

    Also, I've told the folks at work that I thought Kung Fu Panda is going to be the next Shrek. I seem to be alone in that opinion, but you should all feel obliged to see it this weekend and get lots of others too JUST to make me seem visionary at work.

    Or, I guess, because I thought it was as good as Shrek.
    Thursday, May 29th, 2008
    8:59 am
    well dip me in honey and feed me to the lesbians...
    A new spec script for Women in Chains!, a female prison drama series starring Rose McGowan from director Robert Rodriguez is being shopped to several networks including NBC and FX, reports THR. Rose will portray one of five chained women in this proposed series.
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